Thursday, June 24, 2010

A summer of memories


A summer of Memories
6/24/10

Summer is a great time of year, but unfortunitely it is one that I have never gotten the chance to enjoy because of my life growing up. It seems as if something tragic happened every summer and then from High school on I had a job so there was really no summer anymore, but that is all changing now.

I am currently working as a live-in nanny and I care for two little girls ages two and five and I have determined in my heart that this is going to be my best summer so far and I am going to enjoy every minute of it. I have been busy since the beginning of May making summer memories witht these two precious little girls and I am trying to give them the life that I never had.

God has saved me and allowed me to endure the things that I have and I know that He is working everything together for the good as Romans 8:28 says. So although I don’t have any previous summer memories I am making lots of favorite memories this summer!

Friday, June 18, 2010

A Father For Father's Day!



Father's Day is a special day where everyone gets to honor their dad and show him how much they love him.

I have always considered Father's Day just another day and nothing really special. I have a father, but he had a stroke that left him disabled when I was only nine years old. He is incapable of being what a father should be and it is nearly impossible to have a relationship with someone who has a hard time communicating. I don't really remember him before he had his strokes either so he is my father, but with his disability he is unable to be the dad that I need.

I gave my life to the Lord a year and a half ago and have come to realize that He is my Father, my heavenly Father and he loves me more than anyone ever could. He is my Creator and He will always love me no matter what. It is so refreshing and gives me great security to know that I will always be loved and never left. Many people feel as if their parents didn't want them and the great thing about God is He created you so you know that He wants you. You were never just a mistake because He knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13 That verse gives me chills when I think about it. It reminds me of drawing a picture or playing with play-doh and spending so much time to make what you are working on look just the way you want it and putting the final touches on it. God does that before we are born. Our Father has already planned our life and when we give our life to Him He gets to mold us into that person that He has created us to be. I have never felt more loved than the day that I realized that our Father wants us and I will never be left again!

Since I have given my life to the Lord He has also put someone else in my life who is like a Father to me. I have never really thought of anyone else being like a Father to me until the end of 2009. Last year I have become really close to my Bible Study teacher and she is like a mom to me. While spending time with her I have also gotten to know her husband and he is just an amazing man and has become someone that I consider to be like a father to me. It is the coolest thing because they have become like my parents. I even call them my adoptive parents. It is funny because recently as I was getting ready to do something that wasn't bad, but also not the smartest thing I was telling my "mom" and she told me what she thought and then told me that my "dad" was not going to like it and I better be ready for that conversation. He has talked to me before a couple of times about guys and my job and stuff and it is just neat that when my father isn't capable of being the father that I need God has put someone else in my life to be that dad to me.

God knows just what we need to be the people that He has created us to be. I have always felt like part of me was missing because of not having a mom in my life and having a dad who can't be a dad. I gave my life to the Lord and He gave me new "parents" and I have never felt more complete or happier in my life. This year isn't just another day, but it is a day to celebrate my Heavenly Father, my biological father and the wonderful man that has become my "adoptive" father.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

A Love Story




A Love Story
6/3/10

At the age of twenty-three I have come to the realization that I have never really been in love in any of my past relationships. I can remember thinking that I was in love at the time and feeling as if a part of my heart was being ripped right out of my chest when the relationship ended, but it wasn’t true love. Since I have allowed Christ to turn my life around and have accepted him into my life as my personal Lord and Savior I now know that what I thought was love was really just lust.

I have recently fallen head over heels in love with the Lord and come to realize that He is my first true love. The more time that I spend with Him the more I love Him. I am finding that I seem to love Him more and more each day. It has been almost a year and a half since I have given my life to the Lord and He has completely changed my life in ways that I never thought were possible. He loves me in a way that is so pure and true and nobody here on earth will ever be able to love me like He does. I no longer feel as if I need to find love in a man because Christ supplies me with all the love that I need.

There may come a day sometime in the future that the Lord sends a man into my life that He has for me and I will be ready if that shall ever come. I can promise you one thing though and that is that man is going to have to be pretty amazing if He is from God. If it is not in the Lord’s will for me to ever marry then I am content in knowing that He is my first love and He will never leave me or stop loving me no matter what I do. So for now God is writing my love story and I am going to continue to allow him to do so.