Saturday, October 16, 2010

Forgiven And Set Free!

Forgiven and Set Free
10/11/10

One subject that doesn't get talked about much is abortion. It is not something that people like to think about or talk about, but the fact of the matter is that abortion is real and is happening everyday. Statistics show that one in three women in the church are post abortive, meaning that they have had an abortion. When I think about that number it is just amazing to me.

Not only does abortion kill an unborn child, but it emotionally damages both the woman and then man of the aborted child. Some abortionist tell women who are considering abortion that it is not yet a baby, but just a blob of tissue... That is a LIE. Life begins at the time of conception! The Bible does not say do not have an abortion, but it does say thall shalt not murder and that is exactly what abortion is, the killing of a child whether it be done at 8 weeks or 30 weeks. If you are in a position where you are pregnant and are considering abortion because you can not care for your child you have another option. There are many people who want to have children, but for various reasons are unable to and they would love to adopt your baby. It is better to let your child live than to abort them without giving them a chance at life.

If you have had an abortion there is still hope for you. We serve an amazing God who is full of grace that covers ALL of our sins. If you have accepted Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior and have asked for forgiveness then He has forgiven you. He can also provide healing for your emotional hurt and scars. If God has forgiven you then you need to forgive yourself, because if you don't then you are saying that the Lord's forgiveness is not enough.

I know someone who had an abortion at a very young age. She didn't even know what an abortion was at the time. Her mother took her to the "doctor" and they just told her that they were going to remove some tissue and that she wouldn't be pregnant anymore. She was told that she couldn't tell anyone and she didn't. She carried around all of the pain from the guilt for nine years before she told her secret to anyone. She has learned that the Lord has forgiven her and He has healed her of all of the hurt and pain that she carried around for so long. She did a Bible Study with other post abortive women and during that study she wrote two letters. One of the letters was to her aborted child and the other was to God dedicating her unborn child to Him. She has given me the privilege of including her letters in this blog so that if this blog may reach someone else who had had an abortion they can see the healing and freedom that the Lord has brought to her and know that He can bring it to them too.

Here is the first letter that she wrote to her child:

To my precious child,

Though I have never had the chance to meet you I think about you all the time. I often wonder what life would be like with you by my side. Would you love me? Would you call me mom? These are the questions that I ask myself all the days long.

I am sorry that I was unable to give you the chance to experience life and because of someones selfish decisions you had to die. Your silent screams have awakened me many times at night and I have laid in the dark and mourned the loss of you, the baby that I killed. There have been many times when I have contemplated ending my own life as I ended yours.

When I think about where you are now I am at peace in knowing that you are with Jesus. He loves you more than anyone in the world ever could, including me. I long for the day that I will get to see you face to face, but until that day please know that you hold a special place in my heart that nobody could ever replace.

I speak to the Lord everyday and ask Him how you are. He has comforted me more times than one. He has told me that He is holding you tight and keeping you wrapped in His loving arms until He brings me home. He has given me assurance that He has forgiven me and you have too. He has also told me that you love me very much, way more than I will ever be able to understand. I don't know how many more days we will be apart, but your never really far because you are always in my heart. I love you baby.

Love,
Mommy

This next letter is the letter that she wrote to God dedicating her baby to Him:

Dear God,

Oh how I wish I had words to say and stories to tell about my baby who is in heaven now. I wish I could hold her in my arms and tell her how much I love her. I wish I could have had the chance to meet her and give her a life that would have honored and glorified you.

Lord you know my heart and you know my circumstances and you know that I did not have a choice at the time. I know that my baby is with you and you are taking better care of her than I ever could have. Lord I am ready to dedicated her to you and allow you to continue to care for her as you have been, until you bring me home. Keep her wrapped in your loving arms and please continue to tell her how much I love her. She is yours Lord.

Love,
__________

What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of? Those things result in death! But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. Romans 6:21-22

Friday, October 15, 2010

Working In The Womb

Working In The Womb

10/8/10



13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full and well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, 16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:13-16



I have read this passage of scripture several times and have even used it in one of my previous blogs. I have always looked at it in the aspect of God knowing us before we were born and how we are fearfully and wonderfully made. While doing Bible study homework I had to look up this passage of scripture and when I read it this time I thought about something that I have never thought about. Before a women becomes pregnant the Lord can already see the child and knows everything about them. Then the awesome part is that while a women is pregnant God is working inside her creating this precious child that He loves so much. Scripture says that He knit us together and that we were woven together and that just makes me picture the Lord working inside the womb creating each child just the way He wants them.



God knows if and when a women will become pregnant and He is the one who controls that. He promised Abraham and Sarah a son, but Sarah did not give birth to Isaac until she was 90 years old. God made the "impossible" possible.



After thinking about that I asked God why He allows women to get pregnant outside of marriage and why He allows people who shouldn't have chidren have them. He quickly reminded me that ALL things happen for a reason and that He works ALL things together for good for those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28 In my opinion my parents should have never been able to have me because of they were unable to take care of me and I went to foster care and all of that stuff, but God is using all of that to make my testimony so much more powerful. He created me for a reason and I had to go through the things that I did for a reason and it is for His glory.



I don't know why things happen the way they do, but I know that God has a reason for all things and He never makes a mistake. We were all created the way that God wanted us and He worked inside of our mother's wombs to make us just this way.

Worry Ends Where Faith Begins

“Worry Ends Where Faith Begins”
09/13/10

I can’t believe it has been six months since I have started this journey of writing blogs and I can’t believe that I have written over thirty of them. It is neat to see and hear about the affect my blogs have on others. Sometimes things will happen to me and I know that I am going to use that for a blog, but most of the time I have no clue what I am going to write about until I actually sit down, pray and just begin to write… like today!

A lot of things have taken place this past week and I have some decisions to make and changes that will be happening in the next couple months that will change my life. Normally I would be totally stressed out and constantly worrying about what I am going to do because reality is that I don’t have any idea what is going to happen in the couple months.

Although there has been times when I have started to stress and needed to talk to get back to where I need to be, I have found myself so much at peace. I know that no matter what decision I make or what happens that God is in control and I don’t have to worry about anything. There is a quote that I have seen and I love it so much and it is that “Worry ends where faith begins.” When you think about it, it makes total sense because if you are worrying about something you don’t have faith that God can handle it. Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

We are all human and we are all going to worry from time to time but we have to remember to “let go and let God.” As I was reading my Bible today I came across a passage that is just exactly where I want to be at this time in my life and I think this is where we all should want to be. It is Jeremiah 17:7-8 “But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in Him. 8 He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” If we trust in God and have confidence in Him we will not have to worry about anything at all and we will always be bearing fruit no matter what situation we are going through at the time.

This past week I have been trusting in the Lord and although I have no idea what is going to happen I feel so at peace that I almost feel like there is something wrong with me. I know in my heart that everything is going to be okay because God has not failed me yet and I know that He never will. Hebrews 13:5 says Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; Never will I forsake you.”

I am finding that the closer we walk with the Lord the more we begin to trust Him. It is amazing to me that I am at this place in my life with Him and it is my desire for you to be too.