For
the past couple of weeks the word “surrender” has constantly been on my
mind. I've thought about it and what it
means. I knew that God was the one telling me to surrender but at first I did
not understand because I had already surrendered my life to him 5 years
ago. So, I searched to find other reason
as to why this word was consuming my mind. I talked to a couple people about it, read
stuff about it and listened to songs about it.
God
finally showed me that there is a specific situation that I've been holding
onto for a while now and it’s time to surrender it to Him. When He first showed me this my first thought
was, “I’m not giving this to Him, I can handle it better on my own.” After that the thought of surrendering the
situation made me feel anxiety and fear.
It wasn't long after that the thought of surrendering made me hurt. While talking about this with a friend, God
showed me that surrendering the situation does not mean that I ignore what
happened or act like everything is all better.
It simply means I am giving the situation to Him and I am allowing Him
to help me rather than doing it on my own.
My focus is on Him and not the
situation itself. Since then He has
reminded me that His ways are greater than my own. When I am too weak to walk or fight a battle
He remains strong and gives me the strength that I need to win the war!